Ups

Many ups and downs.. I've experienced many ups and downs... I've been lost,beaten,tormented,pushed,kicked,shot down,torn up,spat out.. Many ups and downs.. It's who I became.. Swamped,damaged,sunken,drained.. Many downs.. Many downs are what I had,depressed,lonely,chewed up,spat out.. De-motivated my new skin.. Down.. My new name.. More downs than up maybe.. Alone,angry,scared,dying..  Hurt became my mindset,hurt,betrayed,ignored,rejected.. One up.. There was one up.. One purpose,broken,beaten,sad,rejected.. For one reason.. Triumphant.. My new skin.. Happiness my new face.. Hope,trust,dependent on Him.. My outlook.. Down but Up,my new life.. Now?.. Downs in their eyes,Ups In His.. Many downs,More Ups.